After we got the kids in bed Friday night, Michael and I sat down on the couch for a couple minutes. In complete silence.
And it was wonderful.
It was so rare that my attention was actually drawn to the fact that I didn’t hear anything but the ticking of the clock.
It was in that moment that I realized how much noise is in my life on a day-to-day basis. The children talking, laughing, and bickering; the radio; the washing machine; being around other people at grocery stores or the YMCA. The noise is everywhere.
I’m the type of person who is easily overwhelmed by a lot of noise, so it’s no wonder that some days I feel like I’m going to lose my mind (and I don’t even realize why).
Sometimes it’s nice to only hear the tick of the clock.
It made me realize that we live our lives surrounded by so much noise. Not just the sound of things but also all the demands that are in our lives. We all juggle a lot. If we’re honest, it’s probably more than our schedules actually have room to hold. I’m guilty of that.
It’s exhausting. It’s demanding. It’s draining.
Everything in my life is a blur. I get to the end of another day and don’t even know how it passed so quickly.
I used to remember dates for events. I used to remember the smallest details. Now I can’t remember to switch the laundry over to the dryer until hours later. I can’t tell you what I did yesterday, let alone last week. All the days run together for me because my life is packed with so many different commitments.
I need to slow down and be still.
I need to enjoy the silence more.
I need to sit at the feet of God and just be.
That’s hard when my life feels like it’s in overdrive. It feels like giving up time here is going to affect me there. Not getting one thing done is a domino effect. Everything else about the routine gets thrown off, but I need to remove the noise in my life. I can’t keep functioning like this.
I need to quiet myself and look at what truly matters.
When we chase the things of this world, we are left empty and exhausted. Sometimes that’s how I feel.
Many days I feel like I’m just surviving.
It’s time to slow down and take in every part of the moment instead of powering through it.
It’s time to create silence.